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Oct. 21st, 2007
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Oct. 21st, 2007 09:33 amSometimes I notice that I am constantly exposing myself, emotionally speaking (ahem), in my day-to-day existence. It wasn't that I was so guarded before, but now ... it's everyday that I open my heart. This may not be positive.
It happens in the moment of disclosure. I work it in fast. Mostly, those to whom I speak are too busy dealing with their own reactions to my studiously calm, practiced, off-handed, statement, "My son has Down Syndrome, and ..." to notice. I take that "and" and launch into some story of medical concerns, developmental stages, explanations as to why one thing or the other is happening, stories about playtime with other children, really anything. I want people to know, I want to get it over with, so that we can move on to whatever the conversation is. But I don't want to deny it, hide it, or ever appear to conceal the fact that my son has Down Syndrome. So I drop it quickly in new conversations, putting a practiced-face over the fears.
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It happens in the moment of disclosure. I work it in fast. Mostly, those to whom I speak are too busy dealing with their own reactions to my studiously calm, practiced, off-handed, statement, "My son has Down Syndrome, and ..." to notice. I take that "and" and launch into some story of medical concerns, developmental stages, explanations as to why one thing or the other is happening, stories about playtime with other children, really anything. I want people to know, I want to get it over with, so that we can move on to whatever the conversation is. But I don't want to deny it, hide it, or ever appear to conceal the fact that my son has Down Syndrome. So I drop it quickly in new conversations, putting a practiced-face over the fears.
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